From Raging Stallion, and the mind of Tony Buff; Fetish Force presents: Back Alley
Friday, December 30, 2011
Monday, December 26, 2011
Fineness
Fineness: Skillful handling of a situation.
I'm sitting down at the bench in the gym locker room. I'm breathing hard and wiping my brow of the sweat I've worked up. I'm thinking it's time for a shower and possibly a steam; what a perfect way to cap off a long day. My clothes come off slowly as i'm trying to hide that i'm trying to get a glimpse of myself in the wall length mirror; especially to look at how much bigger my ass has gotten. It would get more attention if guys weren't terrified to try and grab my ass now and then. i guess the tough guy look is working against me, maybe I should smile a little more.
I'm sitting down at the bench in the gym locker room. I'm breathing hard and wiping my brow of the sweat I've worked up. I'm thinking it's time for a shower and possibly a steam; what a perfect way to cap off a long day. My clothes come off slowly as i'm trying to hide that i'm trying to get a glimpse of myself in the wall length mirror; especially to look at how much bigger my ass has gotten. It would get more attention if guys weren't terrified to try and grab my ass now and then. i guess the tough guy look is working against me, maybe I should smile a little more.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Butch Factor
I hope that i'm not alone in what i'm about to say... WHy have the only gay characters to have ever been portrayed in the general media been so over the top queer? First off i'm not being hateful to those of us out there who are more effeminate in character. However I feel that gay men maintain a stereotypical image that does not:
#1 Change
#2 Represent all gay men
#1 Change
#2 Represent all gay men
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Golden Gate Season 4
Ever since I saw the first season of Golden Gate I thought to myself, "I have to find a way to get on to that series"
Well it took me four seasons, but I finally did it. I got a call one afternoon from Jack Shamama asking if I would be interested in doing a scene for Golden Gate Season 4 the coming Monday afternoon. OMG!! However that morning I was doing a scene for Naked Kombat. There was no way that I was going to miss out in this opportunity after having wanted to have done it for so long, so I agreed to it.
Now for those of you who don't know any better; Naked Kombat is a hell of a scene to do. You have three unscripted rounds of all-out wrestling for submission, followed by a full sex scene. Well It just so happened that I got my ass beat on that shoot by Brenn Wyson, and then mercilessly fucked after. I was walking hamburger meat, and I have forty-five minutes between shoots to get ready. I hobbled my hamburger self from 16th and Mission to 7th and Mission because I couldn't find a cab for the life of me. (Large city blocks)
I got to the blazing hot set (lighting equipment makes the room hot) and banged out a scene with Tristan Jaxx. I was very happy to have finally worked for Golden Gate, and to be doing work outside of fetish. Although I enjoy fetish porn and i consider myself a fetish player (HARDCORE) I really want to be more mainstream. I want to be on the Raging Stallion, Titan, and Naked Sword banners and promotions as a "Porn Star," not just a Fetish Star. Well This year marks my first few stems in to the mainstream line with works such as "Inmates" and "Blind Spot" for Titan, and "Cowboys Part 2" and "Alone on the Range" for Raging Stallion.
I'm happy to present to you my first of I hope many works for THE NAKED SWORD in Golden Gate Season 4 Episode 2 "On(line) again off Again
This is also an unreleased promo image for the scene that you will not find anywhere else other than my site; ENJOY (I was hoping they would use this picture, but they didn't. Funny how you always like the pictures that don't get used.)
Well it took me four seasons, but I finally did it. I got a call one afternoon from Jack Shamama asking if I would be interested in doing a scene for Golden Gate Season 4 the coming Monday afternoon. OMG!! However that morning I was doing a scene for Naked Kombat. There was no way that I was going to miss out in this opportunity after having wanted to have done it for so long, so I agreed to it.
Now for those of you who don't know any better; Naked Kombat is a hell of a scene to do. You have three unscripted rounds of all-out wrestling for submission, followed by a full sex scene. Well It just so happened that I got my ass beat on that shoot by Brenn Wyson, and then mercilessly fucked after. I was walking hamburger meat, and I have forty-five minutes between shoots to get ready. I hobbled my hamburger self from 16th and Mission to 7th and Mission because I couldn't find a cab for the life of me. (Large city blocks)
I got to the blazing hot set (lighting equipment makes the room hot) and banged out a scene with Tristan Jaxx. I was very happy to have finally worked for Golden Gate, and to be doing work outside of fetish. Although I enjoy fetish porn and i consider myself a fetish player (HARDCORE) I really want to be more mainstream. I want to be on the Raging Stallion, Titan, and Naked Sword banners and promotions as a "Porn Star," not just a Fetish Star. Well This year marks my first few stems in to the mainstream line with works such as "Inmates" and "Blind Spot" for Titan, and "Cowboys Part 2" and "Alone on the Range" for Raging Stallion.
I'm happy to present to you my first of I hope many works for THE NAKED SWORD in Golden Gate Season 4 Episode 2 "On(line) again off Again
This is also an unreleased promo image for the scene that you will not find anywhere else other than my site; ENJOY (I was hoping they would use this picture, but they didn't. Funny how you always like the pictures that don't get used.)
Candid
Just a few candid pictures for you to get a good laugh at... ENjoy!! :)
Friday, December 16, 2011
BUSTED
Dirty little secrets haunt us all. One of which is being locked up. I know tons of people who have a skeleton or two in their closet, one of which is being locked up. I'm not just talking about hard time, years in the cell block. Many of us have been detained or kept over night; whatever the reason.
I have my own story about being put in holding, and i'm sure many other porn stars do too. (Several come to mind) They are after all a bunch of party animals, and mix that with lots of liquor and a front page ad is born.
I got put up in detention a few years ago for "Public Indecency" and until now only a hand few of people know about it. It was my skeleton for many years, and i'm doing some pre-Spring Cleaning of my closet. What's the big deal anyway right? Most guys have done it at one point or another, just haven't gotten caught. Sadly I did, so there are mug shots out there of me somewhere. As embarrassing as it has been in the past, i am kind of liberated by sharing it with the world. I get to join the ranks of most celebrities, except i'm not being busted for coke.
Well enough of my private life, go enjoy my rendition of what it's like to be locked up in Titan Men's new Joe Gage film "INMATES"
Instigator Magazine
I'm starting up an ADVICE column for Instigator Magazine. Whatever questions you might have; please send them my way. ;)
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Burnt Offerings
What does anyone have to offer? In my line of work it's all about an image for sale. We, the models, use what God gave us to make a living. It could be a pretty face, a body sculpted from marble, or a cock bigger than a piano leg is what gets you the job. I often wonder for myself, "What does that guy have that I don't?"
I'm constantly judging myself and my self image by other people's standards, and most of the time it just makes me feel ugly. I will never be the walking Greek statue that makes everyone's jaw drop as they make walking look like modeling. However that doesn't mean I won't stop trying to be, after all I have an image to sell for a living.
I have after a long time of meditation learned that I have far more to offer than just an image for sale, or my body. I have a mind capable of wonders if only I could learn to tame the tempest that is my thought process. I'm highly intelligent and capable of so much more than what I give myself credit for. I have become lost in a sea of perpetual beauty, and i'm eager to find myself again.
I want to be able to be more than just a performer. I don't want to be another has been porn star working as a house boy in some rich guy's house. I don't want to be past my prime still trying to live like i'm still a kid. That's tragic and a waste of talent.
I am realizing early that before me still lays a vast land of opportunity and untapped resources, and I want to take advantage of it. I don't want to look back when I'm in my forty's and realize that I didn't do anything with myself. I don't want to simply burn up in smoke what I have to offer the world. i want to give it vision and inspiration.
What I need to do is figure out what my offering is. What is my contribution to the table? That requires more meditation, but I need to figure it out and soon before it goes up in smoke too.
I'm constantly judging myself and my self image by other people's standards, and most of the time it just makes me feel ugly. I will never be the walking Greek statue that makes everyone's jaw drop as they make walking look like modeling. However that doesn't mean I won't stop trying to be, after all I have an image to sell for a living.
I have after a long time of meditation learned that I have far more to offer than just an image for sale, or my body. I have a mind capable of wonders if only I could learn to tame the tempest that is my thought process. I'm highly intelligent and capable of so much more than what I give myself credit for. I have become lost in a sea of perpetual beauty, and i'm eager to find myself again.
I want to be able to be more than just a performer. I don't want to be another has been porn star working as a house boy in some rich guy's house. I don't want to be past my prime still trying to live like i'm still a kid. That's tragic and a waste of talent.
I am realizing early that before me still lays a vast land of opportunity and untapped resources, and I want to take advantage of it. I don't want to look back when I'm in my forty's and realize that I didn't do anything with myself. I don't want to simply burn up in smoke what I have to offer the world. i want to give it vision and inspiration.
What I need to do is figure out what my offering is. What is my contribution to the table? That requires more meditation, but I need to figure it out and soon before it goes up in smoke too.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Perspective
Things on the ground have a tendency to look large and overwhelming. For a while now I have been feeling overwhelmed with the constraints and challenges of just being me. I'm not saying that I'm super special or anything, but I am very empathetic to the world around me; the heart that mourns earth. SO last night in the middle of the night I drove up to the to of Angeles National Park. Under the full moon, I turned up some beats from my favorite Chicago DJ, DJ Lego and danced on top of the mountain. Above me was a big moon with an even bigger halo around it giving off enough light to see the mountain range in front of me. I let me spirit free and let the moment take me, what a release. I then made my way to the very top of the mountain, 7000ft. From there I saw the world in a way that I seldom see it, small. All the obstacles of the world were so very small and insignificant. I was above them, larger than them, stronger than them. Underneath the full moon on top of the world, I was alive and inspired to make this awe inspired moment last. Not just last but to bring it to the world at large.
In the silence of the night and above the glow of the city, i realized how far I had com in my short years, and how seldomly I appreciate where I stand; in this case on top of the world. I have come from the humblest of beginnings where shoes were not always available to wear, and from times where hunger was all there was to eat. I have been walking through fire barefoot my whole life, and still here I am alive and well. I'm kicking ass and I want to keep doing it. Look at me now I live in a Penthouse, not even in my wildest dreams did i ever think that would be the case. Today is a brighter day, and tomorrow is still waiting for me to make it happen.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Current Work
Current Work
This past month released about six different projects that I had been working on.
TITAN MEDIA
Raging Stallion Studios
I also have made my debut as a Director for boundinpublic.com
Check it all out and let me know what you think..
New Drawing
New Drawings
I've been working on some new drawings. I'm not sure what direction my muse is taking me to, but I was inspired the other day while rifling through the internet by an android that looked Uber hot.. so I thought why not make them an erotic android? I have seen it be done over and over with women, but not with men. The following is an attempt at it.
I've been working on some new drawings. I'm not sure what direction my muse is taking me to, but I was inspired the other day while rifling through the internet by an android that looked Uber hot.. so I thought why not make them an erotic android? I have seen it be done over and over with women, but not with men. The following is an attempt at it.
Square Peg
Square peg
"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently, they are not fond of rules and no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the one thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."
I'm doing my best to find my place in this world and although it's difficult to be a square peg in a round hole, part of growing up and persevering is to find a way to make it work. It's making something grand and novel with what little material you have to begin with. It's art. Art is what happened when you try something new and possibly fail, but it's from failure that you find the chance to change and succeed again and again against obstacles that may at one time be giant mountains, but given a second chance are ant hills.
I want to breath a deep breath of relief and not of disarray, but then again would that make life more interesting or simply plain as a bagel? It's the flavor of failure that makes us wince but it's bitter medicine that the physician with in your self uses to heal itself. One day all things will have been attempted achieved and absolute failures, however it's not that day that I'm looking forward to, but instead the journey of a thousand miles; and this may just be my first step.
"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently, they are not fond of rules and no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the one thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."
I'm doing my best to find my place in this world and although it's difficult to be a square peg in a round hole, part of growing up and persevering is to find a way to make it work. It's making something grand and novel with what little material you have to begin with. It's art. Art is what happened when you try something new and possibly fail, but it's from failure that you find the chance to change and succeed again and again against obstacles that may at one time be giant mountains, but given a second chance are ant hills.
I want to breath a deep breath of relief and not of disarray, but then again would that make life more interesting or simply plain as a bagel? It's the flavor of failure that makes us wince but it's bitter medicine that the physician with in your self uses to heal itself. One day all things will have been attempted achieved and absolute failures, however it's not that day that I'm looking forward to, but instead the journey of a thousand miles; and this may just be my first step.
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